Thursday, May 19, 2005
prose somewhat. part 2.
You hold me in your arms. I like that feeling. Of being secure. Safe. Like even if the sky should fall it doesn't matter. I like your smell. And how it seems to follow me wherever I go. Like you're holding me all the time. Should you cry i'd wipe away your tears. Should you fall i'd carry you. Should you get lost in the dark i'd get lost with you. Should you hurt yourself it'd hurt me even more.
Stupid pig. i love you.
sprayy`
+ 11:58 AM
Tuesday, May 17, 2005
i have a bad feeling about this.
it's not as if i'm unfamiliar with their ways.
things are going to turn bad.
ugly.
and i hate it.
i'm caught.
in the middle.
oh god.
sprayy`
+ 4:30 PM
Tuesday, May 10, 2005
of this recent uproar.
recently there's this hoo-haa about this new song. tong hua by guang liang.. whenever people introduced me to the song, i would listen skeptically. cuz' i know in reality this doesn't happen. the ending won't be like that. i'd like to live in the fantasy that as long as i believe, we can have a happy fairytale-like ending. i'd like to make-believe. but everytime i hear that song, it saddens me. cuz' i noe it's make-believe. wish i could hug my bolster and freeze time. wish i could not face reality. wish.
sprayy`
+ 1:52 AM
Monday, May 09, 2005
7th may.
what should i say
defend myself
emotions
they're gone
what's left
emptiness
i sit back
relax and enjoy
your blown-oversized anger
try to laugh
at how insginificant
you are in my life
and how you act like
you're so important
you asked me what happened
i explained myself
you realised it's your fault
you kept quiet
he raised his voice
i shouted back
to get my message across
into his puny brain
he shouted even louder
asking why i shouted at him
i wish i could
dissolve de-fertilise
whatever ground
i was standing on
8th may.
i resolved to work harder
for the wrong i'm doing overwhelms
what did i get
m i s u n d e r s t o o d
it tears my heart
it's not my fault
it's never your fault
so it's mine
i walked until i can't
until my feet refused to move
i sat down crying
people stared at me
like juvenile delinquent on the loose
i hate their stares
wish they could all just disappear
let me find my spot on earth
where i should belong
but earth so big
not one spot belongs to me
sprayy`
+ 11:47 AM