Sunday, October 05, 2008
i think the problem lies with me.
its like three years and there's still no progress.
God, when will this end?
i wait.
and wait.
and wait.
and wait.
until i'm so sick of waiting.
kill me.
sprayy`
+ 10:33 PM
i feel like.
vanishing off in a soft gentle puff of smoke. like i've never existed before. feel like hiding under the bed covers and pretend i'm just cotton. lay still until the world ends. feel like stopping. just stopping in my step and freeze. melt. dissolve. feel like sleeping forever. forever. forever.
all these and more.
escapism.
sprayy`
+ 10:30 PM
Tuesday, November 13, 2007
escapism.
of love of hatred of romance.
of work of studies of pretense.
of me of you and of me again.
there are just so many things in the world i wonder about, and that's just one of these many things. it's a question i place at the back of my mind. i never want to face it head on, but it's always there, lingering on, loitering around, always haunting, never leaving. it's on every face i see, in every word i say, with every person i meet.
and then i realise it's just a mental disorder.
a disease.
an illness.
a thing in the brain.
but how do you extract something from your brain? how do you go about doing it? where do you start? four inches left of the right ear. and two inches down. it's sitting right there, at the back of my mind.
do you have a scalpel?
sprayy`
+ 3:05 AM
Tuesday, June 19, 2007
我们之间。
是家人 是朋友
是情人 还是敌人
如日落黄昏渐然暗淡
夜之黑 心之仪 花之艳
眸之青 笑之灿 烛之点
这一瞬间
仿佛天空繁星都在微笑着
仿佛生命目的就为这一刻
sprayy`
+ 1:08 AM
Tuesday, April 24, 2007
蜗心
沉沉夜空无边尽
粒粒银星点蜗心
孤星独夜织女哀
方得牛郎那点爱
马松长跑寸寸行
层层尘土知蜗心
虫蜕蝶兮李花开
终见晨阳莫虚待
sprayy`
+ 4:22 PM
爱哭鬼
小时候
看梁山伯与祝英台
我哭了
看titanic
我也哭
之后
看冬季恋歌
我又哭
看海豚湾恋人 第一集
我还是哭了
昨天
看引擎
看风之家被迫关闭
看孤儿一个一个被送走
我 再一次 哭了
sprayy`
+ 4:19 PM
Sunday, September 24, 2006
to:
re: will you love me?
embrace. protect. gently. tenderly. fiercely. strongly. intensely. caringly. caress. feed. rebuke. guide. lead. show. clown. pursue. flowers. hold me. kiss me.
from: princess.
sprayy`
+ 8:44 PM
Wednesday, July 19, 2006
im possibility.
juliet to not die
candy floss to not melt
penguins to fly
the sun to not rise
the same to not set
Bush, Saddam allies
white roses to be red
and you, to be understood.
sprayy`
+ 1:47 AM
Wednesday, April 12, 2006
ladies and gentlemen the question of the day
posed to whom the name rhymes with 'they'
as the sun sets, you begin to work
do you, in truth, consider me, a friend?
as the rain hits against the windows worth
when, i thought, will everything end
all the king's horses
and all the king's men
could not put humpty dumpty
back together again
sprayy`
+ 10:05 PM
was it night, or was it day
that my love had found its way
'love', had it been?
oh how it so seemed
but 'love' if it had been
has made my being ever so dim
the smiles the laughter the tears
of one, of two, of one.
i emerged from the darkness without you
and pray that the tides will
bring me back to you
i dive into the waters each day
but every day i resurface again
this pain, what is there to gain
but only my soul be strained.
sprayy`
+ 1:40 AM
Thursday, April 06, 2006
the sea. the shore. the waves.
on which our lives engrave.
hermit crabs hides beneath.
protected by merely a sheath.
names, oaths written by kids.
but no you can't cover with lids.
and when the sea waves come crashing down.
there's really no point in doing a frown.
that's how life is, frail.
sprayy`
+ 1:33 AM
Monday, March 27, 2006
i drft i turn i fly,
i crash i burn and i cry.
in the air sadness there is;
of irreversible past, unknown future
of unscratchable itch, unscrulptable clay
of innate sinful cycles every night and day.
i wish i pray i might,
sleep soundly into the night.
sprayy`
+ 4:43 AM
Monday, March 13, 2006
hope you're doing fine. still, thanks for everything.
sprayy`
+ 1:58 AM